Why ??????

Why am I so reticent? Why can't I just go out and shout my heart out? Why do I sound like a puzzle to others? Why can't others know me? Why I don't let others know me? Why I run away from myself? Why I don't regret? Why I don't feel the pain? Why can't I cry and let my heart out? Why do I sound so intrigued? Why I don't let my emotions come out? Why some people misjudge me? Why I don't have any more fear in me? Why have I become like a blackboard where anyone can come and write anything or just wipe and write again? Why people become so curious when someone is going throuh a bad phase? Why can't they behave normaly and make things more simpler when everything is becoming so complex? Why can't I be left alone? Why am I like this? Why am I so blunt? Why do I don't crave for love, affection?

Why.... ? Why......... ? Why.................. ?????????

And I know no one can answer this. Not even me. I know I have to live with this. There is no escape I guess.

Milenge Milenge

Milne ki tumhe kab fursat,hum tumhare yadon se kab khali ,
lagta hai mushkil milna milana ,Na tum khali na Hum khali..!!


milenge milenge, jaror milenge, kabhi to hoga dono ka waqt khali
bas intezar karo uss din ka,,ab jindagi ban gaye hai ek paheli
anjane hai , begane hai , haan lagti hai thodi akeli
dekhna bhi to hai us chand ko jo lagti hai bholi bhali. . . !!

lehron ka intezar karne wale sahil ke ret kya jane
registan main mitti ka haal kya hai

iss ka gum nahi ke dil ke tokde hue hain
iss ka gum hai ke, ab waqt nahi hai

ye gila mat kar ke kya gum kya khusi hai
har lamha katne ke ab aadat si ho gaye hai


eid hi tha jab ye chand nazar aaya muje
khuda ka sukriya ke tu mere sath hai

der se hi sahi kabhi mulaquat to hogi jaror
usdin ka besabri se interzar hai

Friendship

Dosti Mein Dil Ka Tamasha Dekha Nahi Jata
Humse Tuta Hua Sisa Dekha Nahi Jata
Apne Hisse Ki Khusiya Bhi De Du Tujhe
Aye Dost Tera Utra Hua Chehra Dekha Nahi Jata

Kings

Subha ke pehli kiran
Khane ke baad ka desert
Sam ka chaiye
Dinner ke baad ka walk
Raat ka timepass

Kings Rules

No Desires No Loss

No Regrets No Obligations

No Withhold Of Assent For No Cause

A Curse

Pause....?

Sambalpur

bahut lekhli english thi, achen tike sambalpuri thi bhi lekhi desi.eeta ya ta tume bujiparba, ya fir ekla mui buji parmi.hentie bhi sambalpuri bujbar bagir mor besi kehi sang nai na jen mane ke mor ee blog padhbe.lekhbar lagi ta henta kichi khas nai na,khali bhabli je sabhe ta english , hindi thi lekhsan, mui sambalpuri thi kain nai lekhti tike,atleast gute post ta lekhbar katha.jaha hele bhi sambalpur ra aayen.een ke aayla utaru khali ghar ke phone karsi bele jai kari sambalpuri thi katha hesi, nai ta aur kahar sange nai, haan aur balangir ra gute sang ache tar sange sambalpuri thi katha hesi.aaji kali bada kharap din chaluche mor, ke jane kana heba. dekhun,sabu jaldi se thik thak hei jaita bele aram milta.sala aur eena rahebar iccha nai na, jentei sentei kari eenu palabar ache.bahut faltu jaga aaye, kejane eenar log mane kenta rahesan.kali ka tike barsa hela bele aaji tike pag ta thik thak ache , nai hele jen garam heuche je nai kaha na.

baki pare ka aur fer lekhmi, haan jadi eeta padhucha bele kichi lekhba ee post bisaya re, je kenta lagla sambalpuri padhi kari :)

Bata Re Chalu Chalu

Bata re chalu chalu kebe kiye dekha hue sabu mane rahe na
kichi loka kichi chehra,haye, kichi loka kichi chehra mane rahe kebe bhuli hue na.......

aakhi ra jharaka dei jane chali aase
hrudaya duara kholi dheere dheere pase
rahu rahu rahijaye ajana athithi
ajana achina hue jevana ra sathi
rati re soye soye aakhi dekhe kete swapna sabu mane rahe na
kichi rati kichi swapna, haye......... kichi rati kichi swapna mane rahe kebe bhuli hue na

sabu jhiyanka bhida re bhala lage jane
ee aakhi bhida bheetare khojuthaye jane
abujha pagala mana karana khoje na
janaku se bhala paye kahine ke jane na
eemiti chota bada kete je ghatana ghate , sabu mane rahe na
kichi katha kichi anubhuti , haye.... kichi katha kichi anubhuti , mane rahe kebe bhuli hue na

Bata re chalu chalu kebe kiye dekha hue sabu mane rahe na
kichi loka kichi chehra,haye........... kichi loka kichi chehra mane rahe kebe bhuli hue na.......

Birthday vs Date of Birth

This is becoming a big issue for me,well not that big, but ab lagta hai ke muje iska kuch karna chaiye.So first things first.This may sound silly , funny or whatever you say, but I don't know my Birthday.I have an official Date of Birth which is there in certificates which is not the original. And I never tried to find out what's my birthday.And the problem is in our traditional calender my birthday changes every year.Again it may sound funny,but thats how it is.So when anyone asks whats your birthday, I just tell them that I dont know.

Now after interacting with a few souls who have a tendency to know the sun signs and stuff like that,they have asked hajaar times to tell them my birthday, so that they can find out my sun sign and know what kind of person I am.If someone can tell my sun sign by my personality then plz tell me.Some even asked me to ask my mom abt my birthday.Now this is slisha odd for me.She will think that, itne sal ho gaye isne nahi pucha aur abhi birthday kyun puch raha hai. Jaror koi ladki ka chakkar hai and he wants to know all those sun sign and future prediction stuff, which I never believe.

So friends kabhi mujse mera birthday mat puchna.Aur ho sake to muje mera sun sign bata do :)

Finally it rained a lil bit in Chennai

Finally there is some relief from the hot chennai garmi.The weather today was cloudy in the evening and it rained a few drops also.It was hi funda in the swimming pool , with lights and a few drops here and there.I hope this stays there for a few more days.There is a plan for a movie today, lets see, either its D or Kingdom Of Heaven.Last time I went for a movie i crashed after 20 minutes.It was Star Wars.But its raining, can't go for movie. Its Peace . Paise bach gaye :)

Cold Temperature & Relativity

Its chilly.Every where there is ice, white ice, on dry branches on roof tops. Just five of us are sitting there , having beer. Suddenly one walks towards a basement, where a lift like structure is there. I follow him curiously. He goes inside and there he finds steel rods, all in a zig-zag fashion leading to space. He starts climbing slowly. As he keeps climbing gradually the temperature starts droping, its freezing, but he still keeps climbing, after a long time suddenly the air sucks him up. He starts moving upwards fast, so fast that may be he reaches escape velociy. I have no idea whats happening. One more guy goes inside, and he also climbs the steel rods, the temperature gradually decreases, but he goes in a wrong path. After a long time nothing as such happens like going up ward. Suddenly he falls towards the ground, so fast that he is helpless.Finally he comes to the ground, totally unconsious. I had to pull him out of the basement and he breaths some fresh air. He tells the funda that when you go in the right path, it becomes very cold and in this kind of cold atmosphere when you reach the escape velociy then you defy age. Some funda about relativity which I also didnt understand. Finally I decide to go inside the basement and I start climbing the steel rods. They are shining like swords.I climb fast and I could feel the cold temperature. Gradually the temperature starts decreasing, its becoming freezing.I still continue climbing and suddenly the phenomena happenes. I see bright light and suddenly i get sucked up in the air. Actually there is no more air after a few seconds and I have reached a velocity which i dont have any control over. I am moving so fast in such a cold situation. Its thrilling and so exciting ....and.... and



Knock knock knock. . . . . . . whats that sound. . . . . .I wake up and open the door. Its finger standing outside my room.I thought he will ask for toothpaste ,but this time he has to work on my comp.Just a few more seconds and I would have defied age :)

Welcome to My Real World

Dawn to Dusk the sky changes from Fresh, Bright to Soothing, from melting the morning dew on the tip of a green leaf, fusion with the blue sky so instantanious to the breeze of an soothing evening, wind blowing past my face, psychedelicaly reminding me to forget everything that exists in this world, beyond this world, where no one exits, not even me, where the feel, the touch, the vision are superficial, time and space are stagnant, contained in a single drop, yet inside so vast that I am searching beyond infinity, so complex yet so simple. . . . . . . .

Welcome to the Real World