Who is She?

I still remember every bit of it. It still feels so fresh so natural and so real. She was like morning dew, with just a little sparkle in her eyes. We were so close. I could feel her deep breath, fast heartbeat. And when I kissed her it was amazing. I actually felt her lips, so soft. It wasn't one of those vague dreams, I know because I was part awake and woke up and went to this world of ecstasy again and I could feel her again. I could feel the touch of her soft hands, her face, so innocent, her smile, so cute. I felt every bit of it. I don't know what was happening. I don't want to know what was happening. May be someday I will find her.

It Sucks Here

It Sucks & sucks bigtime. Its the system and as usual the general response will be that no system is flawless. But when you don't find a logical answer it sucks. Just now I heard that The Dean Students has banned the pizza delivery at the rooms. Earlier there was a rule that the pizza guy will wait at the hostel entrance and won't be allowed to go to the room for delivery. Now he can't enter the IIT campus. When I asked the gen sec the reason, he could not give any specific logical reason. Whatever he said is something like this. The pizza guys drive fast inside the campus and are a threat to human beings and the deers that stay inside the campus. Just two days back a frog was found in one of the mess in veg biryani. I don't know what action has been taken against this but I am not able to find any logic behind stopping the pizza guy to deliver at the rooms. According to the gen sec, the institute provides good food at hostel and why should we order a pizza from outside, and if we want we can go out and eat. Now if the hostel food is so good then why is a Dhaba there inside the insti in the hostel zone which definitely is hazar unhygenic then the pizza? Its not the first time that the system follows its own rule and the student community doesn't have a say in any of the decisions taken. They are just meant to be elected and have a right to remain silent. There are two gates near the hostel zone, one is Vels and the other Tarams. Both these gates used to be the lifeline of the students. A few months back a notice came that the Vels gate will be closed at 6 p.m which they stretched to 8 p.m.later. Reason? I have no idea. This gate had all the xerox shops stationary shops where students could take a xerox at 12 or 1 o'clock in the night when its required. There is a cycle shop which took care of all the cycle troubles. Oh ya students are not allowed to keep any powered vehicle. Every student signs an undertaking. Now that Vels is closed at 8 p.m junta go to Tarams for all their work. There is a fruit shop in the hostel zone which caters to all the students (12 hostels, each with capacities of around 250 to 350) and still sells relatively low quality stuff compared to outside fruit juice shops. There is a STD booth and a shop which sells everything under the sun. Students used to go to Vels or Tarams because the STD booth in the hostel zone used to be busy and there were long Qs. Fortunately the cellphones have made life a lil easier. When other IITs had internet connection in their hostels we at IITM didn't have this even if its an institute of Technology. It came just more then one year back. The reason it seems was that students will misuse the internet facility. What crap. Who has the time to do this so called misuse through out the day. And just because a few students will misuse it, keep the internet away from all the students. Crap, total crap. We used to have bus service from the hostel zone to the gate. Now they changed it into two stages. One from Hostel to GC which is just walkable and the next from GC to the main gate. And the frequency, it sucks bigtime. If you have to go to main gate you catch a bus from hostel zone to GC which will take N time because you first wait for the bus at the hostel zone. At GC you again wait for N time to get a bus to the main gate.And the frequency is so pathetic that students actually don't prefer going to the main gate and going outside somewhere. They just go to the Tarams gate and catch an auto from there. The reason behind this two stage bus service?? Again no idea. Btw it costs just one rupee from hostel to GC and one rupee from GC to gate. And from Tarams it will cost atleast 30 to 40 to go to anyplace. Students prefer giving 30 bucks compared to this two bucks. Why can't they make the ticket just 2 bucks and run it from hostel to gate? No they won't do it, they have a mind and logic of their own. Crap. When you register your computer with the hostel they are supposed to give a LAN wire. Now when I registered he didn't give me one, when I was taking my comp out for repair he was asking me to give the LAN wire back until I get my comp repaired. What crap? Why do they need the LAN wire in the mean time? Again no logic. A library gets closed just because one or two books were stolen or the timing is restricted. Forget about females even male visitiors have time restriction on visiting the students in the boys hostel. I can go on and on like this stating the N number of illogical stuff which goes on here. But the only thing I can do is write it down like this. I am helpless. The student community is helpless. The freedom is non existing. The secs just go to the meeting, listen to whatever crap is being told there and come back. They just get officially elected. That's all. Its totally up to the higher authorities to do whatever they want to do. You raise a voice and you endanger your life, your career. No one will do that. That's how the system is. These young bright minds whom the institute trains and imparts the so called knowledge to be responsible citizens, vanishes somewhere within the system. It sucks and sucks bigtime. So the only way is to beat the system within the system. Yes I don't think we are doing anything wrong each time we beat the system. Is this the kind of attitude only in this IIT or all? I don't know. But whatever I know from friends I think here its just too much. Anything is possible here where there exits an engineering college where boys and gals are fined even for committing the crime of talking with each other, yes that's true, there exits a college like this here. They just take away even the fundamental rights. And worst is the kind of parents who send their sons and daughters to such an educational institute thinking that it maintains a high degree of moral conduct. All crap. It sucks and there is only one way, beat the system.

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Rang De Basanti

I had heard a lot about this movie. There were people who were saying that its really inspiring.
And there were a few who said that they don't understand why the movie is talked about so much. Yesterday I was talking to Bulbul and she said she is really moved by the movie. I didn't understand what did she mean. Is it the concept, the story, or the movie making skills which she is talking about?It was weekend and we went for some beer though a bit early. After having enough beer and the high, we went to watch the movie. Last night it was screened in our insti Open Air Theatre (OAT) as a promotional movie. Junta had said to watch it in a theatre to feel it.Finally I was watching Rang De Basanti in a theatre without paying for it. The movie had started,went through the interval and finished. I for a change didn't find it inspiring, as I felt while watching Lakshya or Swades. Towards the end of the movie my mind had moved out of the movie and I was actually thinking. Yes when you are high you think, but this was different. OAT was full of talented young minds and the professors also. When Soha Ali Khan says, "mar dalo usse" junta roared in enthusiasm, when ever Karan spoke a few lines on radio junta roared. I sat there quietly, watching the whole drama. I never felt the rush of blood. In Swades Mohan Bhargava didn't come back to save India, or to change the political system or to eradicate poverty from rural India. He had a vision and he came back to fulfill that. A small but significant one. In Lakshya Karan is like any other youngster who is confused until he realizes what he needs to do. In Rang De Basanti I could not understand if it is anywhere close to reality. Ofcourse there are emotions attached and if something like that happens any one will get agitated. I have myself gone through something similar. It was not a politician but a doctor. In class 10th one of my close friend had fever and the doctor said its just a case of malaria where as it was typhoid. He died due to the negligence. I could not understand what can be done about the doctor. We were helpless. I don't know what his family was going through,but there must be somekind of anger which got subjugated due to the pain and emotional distress. Everyone talks of changing the political system, to bring a new revolution, to change the corrupt system. And there are a few who actually work towards this. But how many of us actually bring out a small change within ourselves. When a group of young IITians form a political party it becomes news. People think that now here are a bunch of talented youngsters who left high paying jobs and are really doing something. But it just disappears from people's mind after a few days. No doubt, cinematicaly speaking the movie is great, the concept is amazing and the screenplay is superb. But apart from just bringing a few hours of temporary inspiration for these young minds it does nothing. At the end of the movie students were interacting with the director Rakeysh Mehra, the producer, Madhavan and Siddharth(Karan) who had come there to interact with these talented youngsters and their reaction towards the movie. I didn't have any questions to ask them or had the slightest enthu to interact with them. I just shrugged in the crowd and came out of OAT confused, I was no more high.

Whatzup

"What's Up"?
"How is life?
"What's going on?"
"Life main kya chal raha hai??"
"Aur kaisa hai"

I really get confused when I hear such questions. I don't know what to say. They might be really easy for ppl to answer, but for me they are really complicated questions. Questions for which I don't have answers. Is that some of you also feel?? May be..

My Movie Character List

Movie Characters I like

1) Simply Amitabh Bachchan
2) SRK in Swadesh
3) Saif in Dil Chahta Hai & Kal Ho Naa Ho
4) Amol Palekar in Gol Maal
5) Rahul Bose in Mr & Mrs Iyer
6) Abhishake Bachchan in Shararat and Refugee
7) Aamir Khan in Dil Chahta Hai, Sarfarosh, Ghulam, Akele Hum Akele Tum
8) Rajpal Yadav in Main Meri Patni Aur Woo, Hungama, Main Madhuri Dixit Banna Chahti Hoon

1) Konkana Sen in Mr & Mrs Iyer
2) Kajol in Kuch Kuch Hota Hai,Ishq,DDLJ
3) Preity Zinta in Kal Ho Naa Ho,Lakshya, Dil Chahta Hai,Sangharsh, Salam Namaste
4) Chitrangada Sen in Hazaron Khwaishen Aaise
5) Nandita Das in Fire, Bawandar
6) Rani Mukharjee in Hum Tum, Chalte Chalte,Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, Black,Veer Zaara
7) Dimple in Dil Chahta Hai,Krantiveer,Leela
8) Depti Naval in Freaky Chakra

1) Morgan Freeman and Tim Robins in The Shawshank Redemption
2) Tom Hanks in Cast Away, You Have Got Mail, Saving Private Ryan, Sleepless In Seatle, Forrest Gump
3) Russel Crowe in Gladiator
4) LeonardoDi Caprio in The Basketball Diaries, Titanic
5) RobertDe Nairo in Taxi Driver, Meet The Fockers, Goodfellas
6) Mel Gibson in Braveheart, The Patriot, Signs
7) Johny Depp in Sleepy Hollow, Finding Neverland, Pirates of the Carribean,Blow
8) George Clooney in The Perfect Storm, Ocean's Eleven
9) Tom Cruise in The Last Samurai, Mission Impossible, Collateral, The Firm, A Few Good Man
10 Kevin Spacy in American Beauty, The Usual Suspects, Se7en, The Life of David Gale
11 Billy Hays in Midnight Express

1) Salma Hayek in Fools Rush In, After The Sunset, Once Upon A Time In Mexico, Desperado, From Dusk Till Dawn
2) Jodie Foster in Panic Room and Flight Plan
3) Angelina Jolie in Mr & Mrs Smith, Tomb Raider
4) Penelop Cruz in Sahara, Gothika
5) Kate Winslet in Titanic, Finding Neverland
6) Meg Ryan in You Have Got Mail, Sleepless in Seattle, Proof of Life,

An Exhaustive List of Things

These are not in the order of preference , they are just arbitly numbered.I will keep updating it.

Nicks
1)Guddu
2)Brij and the other variations of the same
3)CG in insti

Things of opp. sex tht attracts me:
1) Phigure & face specially dusky ones
2) Sense of humor
3) Attitude
4) Straight Forward and Easy Going Nature
5) Practicality

Celebrity crush:
1) Salma Hayek
2) Salma Hayek
3) Salma Hayek.... N times

Phrases I use a lot
1) Abe
2) Chutiya and other variations
3) Tharak and other variations of the same like tharki,tharkan
4) Walk pe chale kya[:o] that actually means going for a fag
5) sutta hai kya
6) Paise Nahi Hain yaar
7) Mad**c**d&Be***c**d and other variations
8) Arbit
9) Kya Kare

Things which I am proud of about myself
1) :o
2) :-/
3) :-?
4) :-??
5) :-s
6) :D
7) Innocence :)

Movies
1) Mr & Mrs Iyer
2) Kuch Kuch Hota Hai
3) Lakshya (The most inspiring hindi movie for me)
4) Dil Chahta Hai
5) Lets Talk
6) Golmal
7) Prahar/Krantiveer
8) Roja

1) The Shawshank Redemption
2) The Basketball Diaries
3) The Motercycle Diaries
4) American Beauty
5) The Usual Suspects
6) Finding Neverland
7) Titanic
8) Cast Away
9) Requim For A Dream
10)Million Dollar Baby
11 Midnight Express
12 Spring Summer Fall Winter & Spring

Things I can eat/drink anytime
1) Orange Juice
2) Mango Milkshake
3) Chewing Gum
4) Gajar ka Halwa
5) Fresh water prawn
6) Nimbu Pani

Actors I like
1) Amitabh Bachchan
2) Rahul Bose
3) Paresh Rawal
4) John Abraham
5) Aamir Khan
6) Saif
7) Amol Palekar
8) Abhishake Bachchan
9) Akshaya Kumar
10 Sanjay Dutt

1) Tom Cruise
2) RobertDe Nairo
3) AlPacino
4) Russel Crowe
5) Kevin Spacy
6) Mel Gibson
7) LeonardoDi Caprio
8) Morgan Freeman
9) George Cloney
10)Tom Hanks

Actress I like
1) Sushmita Sen
2) Konkana Sen
3) Nandita Das
4) Kajol
5) Rani Mukharjee (out of 5,,4 bengali gals and one half oriya, I lo these gals)
6) Dimple

1) Salma Hayek
2) Jenifer Aniston
3) Angelina Jolie
4) Meg Ryan
5) Courtney Cox

Weird things I have done
1) I fell down from the roof,which had no boundaries while flying a kite which was made of just
paper and tied with a thread, nothing else. And yes it flies with out those sticks.And i didn't
get a single scratch on my body.On one side there were bricks and on the other there were stones, I fell in the middle.

2) In the physics lab practical book @IIT I kept signing under the signature column till the end
when I came to know that it was supposed to be the prof's signature.He made enough fun of me :))

3) Put proxy for the only Sardar in my class of 27, ofcourse it got noticed but i didn't get caught

4) Attended Arts and Commerce classes while I was in college in 12th to watch gals there and once in a commerce class the prof asked me some question, which obviously I didn't know. and the prof says, "you guys just come here to do time pass and look at gals" ;-)

5) In 5th std in skool after lunch break there was no water in the drinking water tap, so we took
permission from the principal to go out to the near by Homeopathy college and drink water.We came back after skool was over.

6) Have driven a Yamaha RX135 at around 115 I lo that machine :)

7) Once I came to room totaly drunk,opened all the windows and door and crashed till morning 9 o'clock just in my jockeys & nothing else.Someone had closed the window and door in the morning

8) Went to a red light area in Goa when I was in first year just to see how things work out there

Things I want to do
1) Earn lots of money
2) Do lots of photography, specially Black & White and cinematography
3) Have my own Travel and RealEstate agency with my brother.I have started working on the travel part. Its the initial bluprint stage.
4) Take my dadi ma for a tirth yatra.
5) Gift a laptop and a bike for my sister.
6) Open an oldage home at my place.I don't know if I can do it, but will try.
7) Have a studio apartment of my own.
8) Fall in love

I wish I had
1) A Hayabusa
2) A BMW Convertible Mini, a Skoda Yeti & Roomer
3) Looks and Hair like Tom Cruise in MI2
4) A Bose Home Theatre System with a high resolution wide screen projecter
5)A swimming pool at the top of my house with palms on the sides and cold orange juice on the deck
6) Not joined IIT
7) Had a galfriend

It took quite some time.